Should I stay or should i go?

My heart is in beat with MAMA.

OK. Summer is........march, aprill........about 4 months away. Short or long, we are already buying plane tickets for the states, if we didn't now, we wudn't be able to get a flight. ANYWAY! Huge thing on my mind. There is this music camp called power chord academy. Its sound and looks rlly cool and a lot of fun. You get to make a music video, record in a studio, make a cd, watch touring bands, perform live. EVERYTHING I'VE EVER WANTED TO DO! Theres a beginningers class. And mom told me about it so its not like im not allowed to go or sumthin, its just that, i don't know if i WANT to go. Isn't tht strange? I think im afraid i wont fit in, everyone will b better than me. But if theyre better than me i'll learn more rite? And its a great experience, so whats stopping me frum going? I still have a few months, i've talked to my parents, and im gunna rlly talk to em tonite bout gettin guiatr lessons, so i'll be a bit prepared. I dunno, i LOVE music. I want a musical career, but i rlly want to go, but don't wanna go. I dunno. this is me asking for help, and also thinking out loud.

when i mention buying plane tickets, its cuz we mite not make a stop to chicago this year, only if i decide to go to the camp.