what the fuck have i been doin this whole year?????

"ripped out his throat and called you on the telephone to take off my disguise just in time to hear you cry"

Good Charlotte.....
......gave me

A wake up call....to..i dont know what exactly, and i dont know how. but i finally know what i need to do. ..it is:
i need to LIVE MY FUCKING LIFE!!!!
i've been so caught up in the future, i forget how i am gunna get there.And basically just to live the moment i am living in. Maybe i have said this before or maybe i havent but i now kno i cant keep taking advantage of life, sail through it easily and think everything will be ok.
Right now, is the best fucking time in my whole life because its the moment i am living.....if that makes sense. I have a hard time putting my thoughts into words.....so if this comes out differently than owell. i hope i get a little bit of the point across. And im not just saying this to be like "hey I finally realized this"
or "yo, this only applies to ME."
but it applies to everyone...
so yea...
"Today is the first day of the rest of our lives"--green day (Church on Sunday)
Xxpeace outxX